You live your life carefree and everything comes to a halt. You have to make decisions to improve your well being. You end up choosing the right path. This path is one you have never taken, leaving the first foot prints. Then you are hit with devastation. Your past catches up and beats the hell out of you. You are still on the right path , but there are no foot prints in front of you, just smooth dry earth. You have another decision to make. Either endure the pain and keep going or just give up completely.

In my past I fucked up my health. And now I'm paying for it big time. Nothing can be done at the moment, so in a way I'm suffering. How could I let this happen?

A bit of advice for all of you.

Please take care of yourselves while you are young. Your life is the most valuable gift you will ever own. Don't take it for granted.

Dealing with the circumstances I have to make another decision. Give up? Or suck it up and keep going?

I think its time for me to suck it up and keep going. I may cry a little and may take me awhile, but I will keep going.

* sorry if I sound depressed*

NOTE: I'm not trying to be all whiny and shit. Just been doing some really hard thinking. Bad news can do that ya know.