Or what you think you know about me. Come on. Tell me.

I tried to resist making a Christmas newspost, but what the hell. This is a little story about me and a bunch of kids.

*ahem*

Once there a nice young lady named Miss Alina. She and her bible study class decided to build a gingerbread house. They tried their very best to build the greatest gingerbread house ever!

They failed.

One of the children yelled, " That looks like a gingerbread from the projects!" And all the children rounded with laughter! Then it fell apart and the children ate pieces of the house.

The End

I pray that you all have a safe and blessed holiday! Merry Christmas!! Smooches!! I love you all!!

I'm a CNA. My job is to assist elderly. I have many of conversations with elderly patients and they have told me some of the most craziest stuff!

" When I was a young girl we had our babies in the woods. We dug a hole in the ground and gave birth!"

" If you drink too much coffee you will get black as hell. Yo ass been drankin coffee!! Yuck Yuck Yuck!"

"I used to jack my dogs off so they can stay in the yard. Yeah I love my mutts!"

" I knowed this young man who used to suck his navel. Stick his finger in his navel and suck his thumb."

" Whenever i gots drunk and had liqour on my breaf, I eats a onion to take the stank out."

" That girl was stankin so bad! She needed to wash her cootsie out!"

" Lawd! Watch out with all them thighs!"

LOL! Wow! Its amazing what people will say, especially the elderly.

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In my dream I was crying. I was crying because it just hung there and didn't do anything. That's I'll I remember.

Interpret this dream for me.

You live your life carefree and everything comes to a halt. You have to make decisions to improve your well being. You end up choosing the right path. This path is one you have never taken, leaving the first foot prints. Then you are hit with devastation. Your past catches up and beats the hell out of you. You are still on the right path , but there are no foot prints in front of you, just smooth dry earth. You have another decision to make. Either endure the pain and keep going or just give up completely.

In my past I fucked up my health. And now I'm paying for it big time. Nothing can be done at the moment, so in a way I'm suffering. How could I let this happen?

A bit of advice for all of you.

Please take care of yourselves while you are young. Your life is the most valuable gift you will ever own. Don't take it for granted.

Dealing with the circumstances I have to make another decision. Give up? Or suck it up and keep going?

I think its time for me to suck it up and keep going. I may cry a little and may take me awhile, but I will keep going.

* sorry if I sound depressed*

NOTE: I'm not trying to be all whiny and shit. Just been doing some really hard thinking. Bad news can do that ya know.

My mom made this scrap book with all my school awards, band programs and class pictures.

I was thumbing through it awhile ago and found my senior year report card. My last report card before graduation. I had a CP English class and Math Tech 4. I was resource classes for math because I was slow in math. The rest of the classes were electives. Band was my favorite class. Me and my friends would make up beats and songs. Our favorite songs were Jesus Is The Homie and Mufasa.

Anyway I thought it was cute that my mom kept my report card. I get to show my children and grandchildren how dumb I was in high school. lol!

Here is a linkfor a closer look.

It is often I find new music that strikes a nerve in me. I have to find who this band or person is and I will not rest until I do! Whenever I discover new music, its always in a place where no one else is paying attention.

Daft Punk: At a ladies Gym
MGMT: Shoe Store
Deltron 3030: Grocery Store

When I hear something different and pleasing I need it and I want it

Ya know the new Puma commercial? Well the song in that commercial tickled my nerves and I had to find it! I finally did! There is no video for the ad but I did find the video to the song.

Follow by Crystal Fighters. I love it! I'm really digging their music. I've been listening to them all night! Very pleasurable and refreshing to the ears. It makes me very happy to discover new artists.

...is so hard

People automatically assume I'm some ghetto chick with no tact and a stank attitude. And I get treated that way. If I show a little self respect, I'm arrogant.

I need to get the hell out of South Carolina. Fast

I'm so fucking happy right now!!!!!!!!

Form a size 36 to a size 16. I finally did it!! Wow I'm so proud of myself!!!

I feel like a new person! Five months ago was the first time in 14 yrs I rode a roller coaster. I can actually walk down the street without anyone laughing a pointing at me. I'm feeling so awesome right now! You guys just dont know!!!

I want to dance! Who wants to dance with me??